i was 7 when it first happened. i was innocent, sweet, playful , and happy.
i was unaware of the evil in this world;
that is until He showed me. my name is Ashley
, and this is what ive remebered.
i was outside playing in our sandpit when he came over.
he sat beside me and played with me for a couple of minutes.
we were alking and laughing when he suggested we play a new game.
but this game was for big kids and he didnt think i could handle it.
of course being young and niave i took the bait.
Sialar, was my cousin on my
stepfathers side he was 16-19 i didnt know his exact age.
only that he was a big kid and i wanted to be a big kid too.
Anyway, he said okay and took a hold of my hand.
we lived in the country, full of woods and wild animals.
but with him i wasnt afraid.
he led me into th woods, which i knew i was not aloud to be in.
i tried telling him i was forbidden, but he said it was ok .
that i wouldnt get into trouble with him there
. i rember looking back at the house saying ok, but i cant go to far.
Sialar smiled and led me further into the woods.
i lost sight of my house and we continued
to walk until we came to some thick brush.
“Ashley i need you to lay on the ground . dont make
a sound and do as i say.
i nodded yes and layed down.
i asked him what game we were playing and he replied
“house. your the mommy and im the daddy andd we are going to love each other..
i dont remeber what happened after he said that but i do remember trying to
stop him from taking my clothes off… im not aloud to sialar, i shouldnt do this…
“Its alright trust me,” he said.
he made me lie back on the ground.
” now what im going to do next may seem weird and a uncomfortable.
but do not make a naise and DO NOT SCREAM.
okay?
he felt his penis slide up and down my leg and giggled,
that feels weird sialar..
i know ash but its ok big kids do this all the time..
you want to be a big kid dont you? …
yes i do,i wan to be a big kid.
he slid his penis up to my slit and rubbed it against my opening.
i was uncomfortable by this point and wanted to stop..
i remember saying “i dont want to play this game anymore..”
“shush its ok.”
then he started pushing into me.
i tried to scream. but his hand was over my mouth
” shuit up you little bitch!”
i tried to fight and to struggle but all
it seemed to do was help him .
when that didnt help me i tried to bite.
scratch and claw, none of it worked.
he ended up cutting off my air supply and
i must have past out after that..
then next thing i heard was mom
calling or me ans sialar cussing.
he helped clean me up and even redressed me…
he even took care of getting rid of my virgins blood.
i tried to get away but before i could he grabbed my are.
” IF YOU EVER SAY ANYTHING ABOUT
WHAT HAPPENED HERE TODAY I WILL KILL
YOU, YOUR SISTER , YOUR BROTHER, EVEN
YOUR MOTHER. UNDERSTAND?”
with tears in my eyes i nodded yes, i tried
to turn and leave but he tightend his grip.
“ALSO WHEN EVER I CALL FOR YOU,
NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE DOING YOU
COME TO ME, IF YOU DONT THE SAME
THING WILL HAPPEN I YOU TELL. ARE WE
CLEAR?”
yes sialar.
mom called again and he let go of me.
i took off running , when mom asked what had
happened and why i was crying
i simply told her i fell..
and so the years of lying started
and always the fear of when he would call for me.
END OF PART 1
( THIS IS BY NO MEANS THE END
OF MY STORY BUT MEARLY PART 1,
I NEED TO TAKE SOME TIME TO GET MY
SELF BACK TOGETHER CAUSE THIS REALLY
SHOOK ME UP. LIKE I SAID BE FOR THIS ALL
REALLY DID HAPPEN AND THIS REALLLY IS
MY STORY. NOT COPY WRITTED FROM SOME
ONE ELSE. IF THERE WAS ANYTHING I SAID
OR WROTE THAT WAS OFFENSIVE THEN I
APOLIGIZE NOW, I SIMPLY WROTE THE TRUTH
. BY FOR NOW AND UNTIL NEXT TIME)
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THIS STORY WRITTEN AND PUBLISHED BY BLUESKY79