I was only a junior when it happened. Not my first time, but the party where it my first time happened.
There was 8 of us. It was Mason, Jack, Danny, Ronnie, Mary, Sarah, Ashley, and I. I guess it wasn’t really a party, but rather a group of teens hanging out at someone’s house.
Jack’s parents were leaving town for the weekend and he was told he could have our group over. We were all excited and thought maybe we could have a party, but Jack lived in a really nice house and didn’t want to mess it up, so that idea was shot. We all thought it would still be fun anyways.
I asked my parents if I could sleep over.
“Who is going to be there? Will there be any boys?” My dad asked.
“Well Jack obviously, Ashley, Mason, Mary, Danny, Ronnie, and Sarah.” I was worried he would say no.
“Oh, then that’s fine. They have slept over before.” My mom was very relaxed when it came to the group. She liked them. They were a good group of kids. Danny and Ronnie played lacrosse, Jack was a track star, Mason played basketball, Mary and Sarah danced, and Ashley played softball. We all did a sport so we really didn’t have time to get in trouble.
I went upstairs and just grabbed a few things including a new set of clothes, a bra, underwear, tooth brush, etc. However, I did grab one thing I normally wouldn’t have, condoms. We were all sleeping over and normally I wouldn’t have packed them, but I didn’t know what would happen. We had only slept over with parents in the house. I wonder if my parents knew I had a secret stash of condoms. I never really showed them any interest in boys. Only my friend group.
Anyways, I put the stuff in a bag and changed into sweat pants and a tight shirt that highlighted whatever boobs I had. My mom offered to drop me off but I would rather ride my bike. I rode over to Jack’s house quickly. I knew I would be the first one there, but that was fine with me.
His parents were still home and I just let myself in like I normally do. Jack and I have known each other since we were in like 1st grade. I had started letting myself in in 7th grade. His parents really didn’t care. I put my stuff next to the couch where no one would trip on it. I turned on the TV and started watching a some show about bloopers. I was actually thinking about going up to Jack’s room until he came down.
“Oh, hey Jessi.” He was only wearing a shorts that stopped just below his knees. He had nice abs that I really liked. I always had a thing for him and Danny. They were just really nice looking. “I should go upstairs and grab a shirt.” He turned to go up the stairs.
“No.” I said a little too quickly. “Its fine, I don’t care.” He was a little insecure and I guess that’s what made me like him. I had seen him shirtless before, you know like swimming and stuff, but I don’t know why, it just felt different.
“My parents are about to leave. Let me just say bye to them, and then we can watch a movie or something?” He said while walking out the front door. It took a few minutes until he finally came in and closed the door. “Do you want to put your stuff in my room for now?”
“Sure!” I jumped up swiftly and grabbed my bag. I followed him up the stairs and down the hall. I had been in his house, and in his room plenty of times, but he had just redone it and I couldn’t wait to see it.
We walked in his room and it was a navy blue color, which was different from the dark green color he had it. The bed had been moved to the far side of the room and his desk right next to the door. It was a nice change.
“Just throw it on the chair.” He walked over to the bed and sat down. I walked over to the chair and put it down.
“I like what you did. Its more you now.” We giggled as I said this. He was so cute. I walked over to the bed and sat down next to him. We started talking a little bit and joking and stuff. It was a good time. I liked being with him.
“Yeah…When do you think Mason will break up with Lexi?” He asked. No one in the group liked her. She was a grade-A whore bag.
“I don’t know. I think he likes the attention.” I said. Mason liked having attention. She gave him so much attention, I almost thought he didn’t know what to do with it.
“Hey, can I ask you something serious?” He asked kind of nervous.
“Sure.” I was nervous. What did he want to talk about? It couldn’t be able school or anything, he was doing fine.
“Why don’t you ever talk about boys or relationships of your own? You never really have them, you kind of just help everyone else and not yourself.” He was genuinely concerned. I never knew he cared like that.
“Well, it’s weird. I don’t really know how to explain it.” I really didn’t. I didn’t want him to know I liked Danny a little bit too.
“I know you can do it. Just say what you think.” He acted like it was as easy as it sounded.
“Will this help?” I leaned over and kissed him. It lasted like 3 seconds before I pulled away slowly. We stayed silent for a while. I wasn’t sure what he was thinking. He wasn’t moving. He opened his eyes, leaned over, and kissed me again. We made out for a while and fell back onto the bed. Our tongues roamed each other’s mouths. Every second we laid there kissing was another second I didn’t want anyone else to come over. After a little while longer, he moved himself so he was on top of me. We were still making out and I didn’t want him to leave. He stopped and helped me take my shirt off. We continued to make out, until the doorbell rang.
“Oh shit! Quick put your shirt back on.” He said in a panic. He ran around frantically looking for his favorite yellow t-shirt with some college on it. I did what he said and put my shirt on. We headed down stairs. Before we got to the bottom he stopped and grabbed my waist.
“We can’t tell them.” He looked into my eyes and he said it. He kissed me one more time before going all the way down the stairs.
He answered the door and Ashley was there. She came in and put her stuff down. I was frozen with his words still replaying in my head. I finally snapped out of it and went down stairs and sat on the couch. Jack went into the kitchen to get her a drink.
“Why were you up there?” She asked as if she was trying to get me to say we had just had sex.
“I was putting my stuff in his room.” I was trying to tell her what really happened without telling her what happened between me and Jack.
“More like he was putting his stuff in your room. You two definitely just did it.” He giggled to herself as she said this.
“You’re crazy. You know we’re just friends.” I tried to deny the fact that anything at all had happened.
“Your hair is all messed up, exactly like it would be after doing it.” She would know. She has had sex a few times. She wasn’t a slut though.
Ashley was my best girl-friend in the group. We met when she moved here in the 3rd grade. I didn’t want to lie to her anymore.
“If I tell you something, you HAVE to promise you won’t tell the group.” I really needed her to keep this one promise.
“Why would I tell them something you told me? If you want them to know you would tell them, right?” She was good at keeping secrets.
“We didn’t have sex.” I said leaving a break. “But we almost did.”
“What is almost?” She sounded confused. Jack walked back into the room almost as if on cue. He set down the drink on the coffee table and sat down on the other couch.
“I got a new game I want us to try tonight.” He said nervously.
“Sounds good!” Ashley said excitedly. It was about 30 minutes later when everyone else was finally there. We watched TV until it got dark.
“Ok, now for the game.” Jack said as he got up. He went into his room and came back down with a Jenga box.
“Are you serious man?” Ronnie said agitated.
“You wanted us to try Jenga?” Mason inquired.
“No no no. Its not just Jenga. Each block has different task on it. If it’s a “couples” task, you spin a bottle and it has to land on someone of the opposite sex. I thought it would be fun” He explained the instructions as he set it up.
It pretty much goes like this. No alcohol while you are playing unless instructed. Couples tasks must be completed with members of the opposite gender. And finally, no backing out of a task.
“I’ll go first!” Mary said enthusiastically. She grabbed a block near the top. “Take 3 shots. Easy enough.” She downed the 3 shots no problem. We thought it was funny because she was the least likely to drink.
“And we just go clockwise. Danny your up.” Jack said.
Danny grabbed a block towards the top like Mary.
“Make out with someone for 1 minute.” He said quietly. “Pass me the bottle.” He spun it really hard. It spun. And spun. And spun. Until finally, it landed on Ashley. They went into the other room and came back in precisely 1 minute.
We played for a long time. Once the tower fell, we just set it back up again and kept playing. We all had to drink quite a bit. We kept playing until the tower fell, but this time we changed the rules.
“Ok, lets change the rules on this one. Whoever knocks down the tower, has to spin the bottle and they have to have sex with the member of the opposite sex it lands on.” Jack said.
None of us were in the right frame of mind to make this decision so we all went along with it. I started this round off and we played for a really long time making sure to keep the tower standing. It only had a few blocks left and it was my turn. I had to make the person next to me knock it down. I slowly pulled the block out and it started wobbling. It kept wobbling and wobbling, until it fell a few seconds later. They all started cheering like drunken idiots.
“I don’t know if I can do this guys.” I said nervously. I really didn’t want to lose my virginity like this.
“No backing out, remember?” Ashley said perfectly sober. She barely had any drinks, so she was fine. “Trust me, I’ll be the only one remembering this.” She whispered as I rolled my eyes.
“Pass me the bottle.” I said after a short sigh. I spun the bottle hard. It only spun a few times before slowing and coming to a stop. Danny. It was pointed at Danny. “Danny, lets go.” I said before getting up and going upstairs. Ashley and I were pretty much the only sober ones so I was hoping Jack and Danny wouldn’t remember this.
We went into Jack’s room and locked the door.
“I don’t want to do this Danny.” I said with a mixture of emotions. “It wasn’t supposed to be like this.”
“I won’t make you do anything you don’t want to.” Danny was sober.
“Were you faking being drunk?” I was really surprised.
“Yeah. I didn’t have too many drinks when we started the last game.” He explained. We both sat on the bed. “We could just sit here for a little while and make some noise.”
“Or we can just talk?” I suggested.
“I guess I’d be ok with that.” He flashed a smile at me. We talked for a while and he was so sweet. My heart was torn between Jack and Danny. “I’m going to lay down and try to sleep off some of this alcohol. Feel free to join me.”
I accepted that invitation. I laid down next to him and he put his arm around me. We laid there for a little bit, but I couldn’t sleep and I could tell he couldn’t either. I was did some thinking in the few minutes we were laying there however.
I figured, it would be beneficial for my friendship with Jack to date Danny. If I dated Jack and we broke up things would never be the same. I couldn’t really think of any positives to dating Jack other than my best friend being by my side forever, which he already is. That is when I decided I wouldn’t be a scared little baby anymore.
I got up and sat on Danny’s waist, exactly as if I was going to ride him. He opened his eyes and I took off my shirt.
“What are you do-?” I cut him off mid-sentence with a kiss. He sat up and while we were kissing I started to unbutton his shirt. He moved his hands onto my boobs and started massaging them. I let out a soft moan in between kisses. I took off my sweatpants and we kept going. He pulled away long enough to take off his pants.
“Are you sure you want this?” He asked as he positioned his hands on the clasp of my bra. I nodded my head in approval and he unhooked my bra. We repositioned ourselves so he was on top of me this time.
I felt his cock rubbing against me while we continued to make out. I was really wet, so I took off my panties and his boxers. Before we went any further I remembered the condoms. I got up and gave him one. He put it on and got back on top of me. We kept making out and he lined up his hard dick to enter my pussy. He entered slowly and hit my hymen.
“Grab the sheets, this is going to hurt.” He warned me.
I got huge handfuls of sheets. He pulled back and thrust himself into me and broke my hymen. I yelled in pain and my eyes started filling with tears.
“Are you ok?” He wasn’t going to move until I was.
“Yeah, Im fine. I just need a second to let the pain pass.” The pain was going away rather quickly. Once it was all gone, I nodded my head to signal him to keep going. He started slowly thrusting into me and then started to speed up the longer he was in there. I kept moaning every time he was all the way in.
“Yes. Yes. Yes. Baby keep going.” I was moaning really loud. I didn’t want them to hear downstairs.
He kept going at a steady pace, until Sarah walked in.
“Shit! We thought you guys were faking it.” She was genuinely shocked.
“Get Out Now!” Danny said angrily. He was really pissed. Sarah walked out knowing things wouldn’t get better if she stayed. Now that Danny was pissed, he was thrusting really fast and really hard into me. It felt amazing. I didn’t want him to stop. He started to slow down. He kept going at a slow pace until he came. He pulled out and threw the condom away.
We got dressed and went downstairs. Ashley pulled me into the kitchen.
“Did you really fuck him?” She asked concerned.
“Yeah. Why?” I don’t know why it mattered.
“Because you didn’t want it to happen.” She was right, I didn’t at first.
“You’re right, but when we started talking, I decided I needed to stop being scared, so I had sex with him.” I replied.
“Whatever, just please don’t do it again.” Ashley asked.
“Fine.”
We went back to the living room and watched movies the entire night. We were all asleep by 3am.
I hope no one remembered that night except for me, Ash, and Danny.