It was about 1 month after I lost my virginity. We all still hung out and nothing had really changed. Ashley and I grew closer. I still remembered her warning.
“Don’t do it again.” I still didn’t understand why, nor did I care. Danny and I started to grow apart. I was bummed out for a while. I thought I had totally screwed everything up. During the 1 month after the party, Mason and Sarah’s parents found out we were drinking at Jack’s house and they weren’t allowed to hang out with us anymore. They tried to sneak around their parents but they got caught, and weren’t allowed to leave the house.
Ronnie, Ashley, and I were all hanging out at Ashley’s. Danny, Mary, and Jack were coming over later but had some meeting for school. We were all going to get frozen yogurt then come back and swim. Ronnie got up and went to the bathroom. So Ashley and I had time to talk.
“Why shouldn’t I do it again?” I cut straight to the point.
“A month after I told you and now you’re curious?” She was obviously trying to avoid it.
“Yeah. I’ve been thinking a lot about it.” I was going to try to hook up with Danny again that night.
“I meant don’t do it with Danny, not sex altogether. I just need you to wait until you find someone you really want to give yourself to.” She was talking with regret in her tone.
“Well, the only 2 people I had ever had feelings for were Jack and Danny. But also, why though? Why wait again?” I admitted. She was the only one who knew about me and Jack and what happened before everyone came to Jack’s.
“Because sex isn’t that great. I did it quite a bit, and I regret not waiting. Now I know what to expect when I get into s really serious relationship and there’s no surprise.” She was spilling her guts. Ashley looked almost as if she was going to cry. “Out of curiosity, who do you like more?” I was trying to avoid that question. Truth is, I was in love with both of them.
“I don’t really know. I love both of them.” That when Ronnie walked back in.
“Who do you love?” He just came over and sat down like he heard the entire thing.
“No one. It’s nothing. Moving on.” I said quickly. The doorbell rang. We all went outside and I and Ashley got in her car and Ronnie jumped in with Mary, Danny, and Jack. We went to our favorite little fro-yo place on the edge of town. We all got pretty close to the same thing. Chocolate and Vanilla swirl with whipped cream and different toppings. We sat at a table outside and talked about what we wanted to do that night.
“Do you guys want to play that Jenga game again? Or do you want to try a different game?” Jack suggested. There was no way in hell I was playing that Jenga game again. Fuck that game. It ruined my friendship with Danny, who sat there quietly eating his yogurt, not making eye contact with any of us when he actually looked up.
“Let’s try a new game. I know just what we can play.” Ronnie started explaining. It’s like the logo board game, except every question you got wrong, you had to take something off. “My sister and her friends played it one time they got drunk. It was funny watching some of them try to get their clothes off while hammered.” He giggled to himself. It sounded like a plan. We finished our yogurt and Ashley and I went back to her house, while the rest went to Ronnie’s to grab the game board.
We got back and went swimming for a few hours. Danny still didn’t look at anyone. It was getting dark so we had to get out. Danny and I were the last ones to get out. I stopped him before we caught up with the other.
“Ok kid, spill it. What’s wrong?” I said jokingly hoping to get him to crack a smile.
“I’m sorry.” That’s all he said before trying to get around me to get inside. I blocked his path.
“Sorry for what?” He looked so sad and worried it scared me.
“I’m sorry I took your virginity. I know you didn’t want to have sex until you were in love and maybe out of high school, but you don’t love me like that and I don’t love you like that.” What he said put me into shock. He pushed past me and went inside. I stayed there for a second trying to comprehend what had just taken place. He told me he didn’t love me. I thought I heard the part of my heart that belonged to Danny rip into about a billion different pieces. Ashley finally came out after a few minutes and got me out of shock.
“Come on, let’s get you into something dry for the game.” I followed her upstairs and when she closed the door I started to cry. I tried to hide it from her, because I didn’t want her to worry. She must have heard me sniffling or something because she stopped picking out clothes for me and passed me some tissues.
“What happened out there?” She asked sitting down next to me on her bed.
“He told me that he knew I didn’t love him when we did it, and that he doesn’t love me like that.” That’s when I really broke down crying. I buried my head in her shoulder and cried for a while.
“I’m sorry. But if you want to take some good out of it, at least you took away the possibility of getting into a relationship with someone that just wants your body and not you.” She was trying to be supportive, but she wasn’t very good at it. I stopped crying for a bit and I got dressed.
“I just need a minute before I go down there.” I said as I put on my glasses. We sat there for a few more minutes as Ashley helped me get rid of the redness. We went downstairs and everyone was sitting in a circle waiting for us. We sat down and started playing. I was probably the smartest of the group and I got the most questions right. Everyone was pretty much naked except for me. I only had my shirt unbuttoned. Ashley was in her bra and spandex. Mary was in her bra and pants on. Jack and Ronnie were both shirtless with their boxers on. Danny was the only other one who didn’t have their shirt off. He wore a jacket and had to take that off. I never got tired of looking at Jack shirtless. He had such a nice body. Danny’s body was pretty close to Jack’s except Danny had a little more muscle.
We finished the game in about 3 hours and realized it was way late. I was the only one that could sleep over so me and Ash sat down and watched a movie. Out of nowhere, my phone started ringing. It was Jack. He wanted me to come over the next day. I thought it was in our group chat so I didn’t think anything of it. Ashley and I fell asleep pretty late and we woke up late the nest morning. I helped her clean up. I was about ready to leave, when Jack texted, he just got home and needed to shower. I heading right over anyways. I rushed over thinking maybe I could get a peek at his body again.
I walked in and went up to his room. I walked past the bathroom and heard the shower going, so I knew he was still in there. I just sat on his bed and waited. After about 10 minutes, he walked in in just a towel.
“I thought you usually bring your clothes to the bathroom when you shower.” I said joking around.
“I was letting you get another peek.” He was so quick with comebacks it was great.
“So when is everyone else coming over?” I asked hoping maybe we could have another moment.
“They aren’t. I asked only you to come over.”
“Oh.” My face went red, I couldn’t tell if I was blushing or if it was from embarrassment.
“I wanted to talk to you.” He sighed right after this and got dressed quickly. The color in my face disappeared. If there’s one thing I hate, it when people say they want to talk then sigh. “I know you love Danny, and I know he doesn’t love you back. After what happened at my house, I know you love me, too.” My face went red again. “Don’t be embarrassed. You just don’t hide it very well.”
“Oh my god. I’m and awful person aren’t I? Im messing with your emotions and Danny’s emotions, and the closeness of the group. Oh my God.” I started to panic. Jack and Ashley were the only ones who knew about my panic attacks. I was starting to have one.
“Hey! Hey! Relax! Sit down!” I was pacing back and forth across the room breathing heavy and starting to cry. Jack continued to try to calm me down by talking to me. It wasn’t working. It only got worse. He grabbed my shoulders and spun me around. He looked at the tears running down my face. He wiped them away and looked into my eyes. I was still crying when I felt his lips on mine. It was a feeling I never wanted to go away. I wrapped my arms around his neck and continued to kiss him. He picked me up and threw me onto the bed. I took my shirt off in the time before he started kissing me again. In the back of my mind, I kept seeing Danny and how sad he looked. I then realized Jack was taking off his pants and I started to do the same.
He started to kiss my neck and I felt his hard dick start to rub against my leg. He took off his boxers and slowly started to remove my panties. I guided his dick to my wet pussy and he left it there for a while before he did anything.
He started to move his dick up and down along my wet pussy teasing me. He then entered slowly. I think he went slowly expecting to hit my hymen. He was all the way in. Jack was way bigger than Danny. He started to pull out and thrust into me. He got faster until he reached a steady pace. He kept grazing my g-spot every time, causing me to moan every time. He was starting to get out of breath but kept going. He was way better than Danny in general. He thrust harder and was bigger. He started to slow down.
“Don’t stop babe, it feels so good.” I moaned when he slowed.
“I’m going to cum.” He was trying to pull out.
“I’m on the pill. You don’t have to worry about it.” I kissed him as he kept thrusting. Next thing I knew, he was filling me with his cum. He slowly pulled out once he finished. We got dressed and went downstairs. His parents had left him a note.
“We went out with your Aunt and Uncle. You may have the group over and/or go out with them.”
He called everyone and they all said they would come.
We sat on the couch making out until the doorbell rang. Everyone came at the same time.
“Jessi. Kitchen. Now.” Ashley demanded. She sounded pissed. “You had sex with Jack didn’t you?”
“What makes you say that?” I asked.
“You smell like sex. I mean I’m glad you did, but did you even think about Danny? How you felt last night when he told you he didn’t love you?” She brought up a good point.
“I did. Danny was in my mind the entire time. Jack said he loved me though.” I said feeling guilty.
“Ok. If you believe him. Let’s get back to our friends. We can talk about this more later.” She said as she walked out of the kitchen.
I followed and we all watched movies and laughed all day.